2015 New Year Resolutions

Simply Being The Best I Can Be

I know that this is a big step for me. I know that this might not be the best timing for it. I know that I will have some supporters out there beside me. And if you’re confused to what I’m talking about, I’m right there with you! Right now as I’m writing this, it’s late at night on January 1, 2015. I have had so much going through my head over the last couple of hours. Actually over the last couple of years to be completely honest. But right now all the things going on in my mind I want to come true.

I want to succeed.

As I was trying to sleep my mind just kept wondering. Thinking and reflecting on what I want my year of 2015 to be like. (As I’m typing this my heart feels like it could beat right out of my chest). I don’t want to be or sound conceded, but for me, I want this year to be about myself. Now I’m really hoping you don’t think I sound completely conceded! I have enormous dreams for myself that I hope to succeed at eventually.

One of the things I hope to succeed at is becoming a vegetarian. I have thought about this for a couple of months about the effects it would have for me, but also the benefits. For myself, there are many benefits. Not only getting more vegetables in my diet, but also eating healthier in general. It will be good for my body and it will make me feel good. In my opinion, over the last couple of months when I look at meat, I almost feel sick inside. For the people who know me best, I am an animal lover 100 percent. And when I think about what I’m eating, that’s when it makes me feel sick physically and mentally.

I want to be 100 percent honest with myself and others. I don’t want to always keep to myself and hide from others most of the time. I also want to stop over thinking and caring about what other people think about me.

One of the biggest things that I want to accomplish this year is to lose weight. This has been something I have been wanting to do for years now. I have tried and failed many times before, even if you may not have noticed it. Ever since I was in the hospital and gained so much weight, I have never really felt the same about myself. I almost feel like a different person than who I was before. I feel like I have hidden myself for the world, knocked down my own standards about myself, and have lost so much confidence in myself. Like in the last paragraph, I want to be honest with you. I am 5’0” and currently 150 pounds. My goal is to get down to 120 pounds.  

This is why I want to change this year. I don’t want to become the person who I was before. And I don’t want to completely lose the person I am now. But I want to simply be the best I can be through my eyes.

If you have made it this far, thank you. One of the main reasons I have posted this is because I believe this will be one of my main motivators through this. One of the flaws I have had before while trying to lose weight was keeping it a secret from almost everyone. I didn’t have people backing me up on my decision and motivating me to get through this. (Except my wonderful mom). I’m hoping that if you have read this far and feel the same way about this decision as I do, I will have your support.